June 9, 2015 Without you...

I struggle to do this all without you, it wasn't supposed to be me raised our boys. I never know if I'm making the right decision or how to handle these years. You were supposed to be here and it is hard not to sink into what it was supposed to be. These two boys and I need you more then you will ever realize. Breaks my heart to see them grow and do all the good and bad things without you here to guide them. I'm lucky to have other people to help and in thankful for that but some days it gets the best of me.