Thursday, March 1, 2012

Wow, 8 months ago today I was rolling over in bed to Derek leaving for a half a day of work before celebrating Ethan's 8th birthday with wonderful family and friends. He drove off on his bike for one of the first times on the highway (he never did that much) I remember being nervous about it but of course he kissed me goodbye and as always promised everything was going to be alright. He was right for that day because he returned home safe to me for one more night. I still remember the way he smiled and told me everything was okay, that look he use to give to tell me I worry too much. We had an amazing day and night with our family that day. Movie and dinner with the Boone's, Harshfield's, Brown's, Maddie and our little foursome and then cake at home to be finished with a couple drinks and awesome conversation with two of our best friends on the back porch with the kids swimming in the background. Who would have thought that it would be the last night that I laid beside him and in his arms.
I haven't thought about that day as much because the day after was so horrible but the day before was amazing and I am glad we had that.
I know we were all so happy but did we ever really appreciate it so much to realize it could be taken away so easy. I mean we knew we were lucky but we never realized how it could change in just a split second.
Well I never normally share that much of my personal thoughts but for some reason I did. As I am being told to get out of my comfort zone a little.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Missing you!!!

Monday, Feb 27, 2012 Science Fair

Well Garret won 3rd place in his class science fair. He was so excited and I am so proud of him. We both worked hard on it and that says a lot since this was always a Derek project. He didn't win in the school wide but still he did amazing!!! Met with his teacher today and all in all she says he is doing good just have to work on his hard head a little. Proud of both these boys during this journey!!!!
Love them so much!!!

Monday, Feb 27, 2012

Good morning everyone! Just trying to keep the blog going but don't have a lot of time these days. The boys got accepted into Camp Comfort Zone in Richmond, VA and are very excited. It is a camp for children who have lost a parent so I think it will be very good for them.
Garret went on his first big boat fishing trip yesterday with Uncle Lonny and loved it. At first it broke my heart because I think oh Derek should be here doing this but the smile on his face when he got back was amazing. He had a great time!!! Ethan and I had a day together since Garret was fishing, we went to see movie and then enjoyed some time in the sun. He is a amazing little boy.
Well talk to everyone soon, off to work!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Well I was able to finally get Derek's headstone placed, I am very happy with it and glad they could finally get it set. If you look at the bottom left you will see the boys hand prints and signature in the base.

1/4/2012

Also I finally was able to get Derek's tattoo. For people who don't know the story: Derek had been looking for a cross tattoo for a year now and could never find anything he liked. Well 7/1/2012 on Ethan birthday we walked into this tattoo shop and in ten minutes he found this one and loved it, tried to talk us into getting it that night but we told him we would come back the next night after our cookout since there were so many people with us. Anyway he was suppose to get it the night of the accident and never got to. So now four friends and I have it and it is on his headstone in which I hope to have places this month! Love u all!

1/4/2012

Well I haven't been great about keeping all this up but just trying to get past the holidays! The boys ended up letting the excitement get the best of them and really had a good Christmas! Wish us adults could do the same sometimes. Anyway we are still taking it a day or week at a time and keeping our heads up. I wish I could say it gets easier but it doesn't but we have to move forward, there is no Plan B!
Love you all!