Wednesday, April 11, 2012 Day 3 Spring Break

Today we started the morning by getting up early and shell hunting, just the three of us. The boys hunted foe shells for a while and then Garret started writing in the sand "love u dad" and the water kept washing it away so they decide to spend 30 minutes to build a wall to protect it from the water, they did an amazing job. Sweet boys! The boys loved it, they say they don't have a favorite thing down here that they like it all and want to move here. I told them if they had this every day they probably wouldn't appreciate it as much. But it is nice to get away and enjoy all of the beautiful views and fun with my boys. There is such a void without Derek here but we have been able to make the best of it. I've had a lot of time to think and some good and bad as come of it, I know I can never give up because I love my boys and Derek too much but the pain of not having Derek here is so much some days. He was a amazing husband, father and person that it is hard to imagine our life without him. One Day at a Time!!!! We ended the day on the beach with a shower and night in the condo and cooked, needed some extra rest.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012 Spring Break

Today was good but my mind was restless. We got up and hit the Mossy Oaks Outlet for Garret & Ethan a couple hunting clothes then we came back and laid on the beach. We are getting the hang of the sandcastle thing as you can see, it was a team effort. We visited LuLu's for dinner and the kids loved it. They climbed on this huge obstacle course and of course Garret had no fear and went straight to the top. Ethan stayed with Maddie and was more reserved like mom. Ha The boys are beat and we all crashed early last night so we can get up and shell hunt in the morning. We are trying to enjoy what we have here, but we miss Derek something awful!!!

Monday, April 9, 2012 First Day of Spring Break

Well our first full day at the beach was a lot of fun and long. The boys loved the beach and waves, they got right out there and jumped in. They rode the waves for hours and played in the sand. Mom wasn't that great at the sand castle building (that was always Derek's thing because I hate the sand) but I did my best and we built the best castle we could, I had sand all over me and it was worth it. The boys then started diving for shells and got a good amount of shells to take home with them. We came in about 3:00 and took showers so that the boys could go to a baseball game with Mark (Mark and Melanie are in Orange Beach right now) so they had a full day and lots of fun. They both enjoyed the time at the baseball game and some boy time with Mark. They got home about 11:00 and crashed for the night. Here's to another good day at the beach!!!

Saturday, April 6, 2012

Well today Garret went hunting with his Uncle Lonny and got his first turkey and he was so excited. Derek would e so proud of him, it was something that Derek wanted to do with the boys this year.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Don’t be mad if I cry
It just hurts so bad sometimes
‘Cause everyday it’s sinking in
And I have to say goodbye all over again

You know I bet it feels good to have the weight of this world
Off your shoulders now
I’m dreaming of the day
When I’m finally there with you

Save a place for me
Save a place for me
I’ll be there soon
I’ll be there soon
Save a place for me
Save some grace for me
I’ll be there soon
I’ll be there soon

I have asked the question why
But I guess the answer’s for another time
So instead I’ll pray
With every tear
And be thankful for the time I had you here

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Well I completed the Triple Crown. Last race was Saturday and the hardest. I promised myself laying in UofL Hospital that I would do it. It was a long walk and walking into Cardinal Stadium with tears as I looked around at one of Derek's favorite places, I kept my eyes on our football seats and it's still so hard to believe he is gone. I miss you every moment babe!! Thanks to the family & friends for their support!!

Sunday, April 1st, 2012

Hard to believe that tomorrow it will be 9 months. It still doesn't seem possible to live my life without you. We love and miss you. You took a piece of each of us with you.