1/4/2012

Also I finally was able to get Derek's tattoo. For people who don't know the story: Derek had been looking for a cross tattoo for a year now and could never find anything he liked. Well 7/1/2012 on Ethan birthday we walked into this tattoo shop and in ten minutes he found this one and loved it, tried to talk us into getting it that night but we told him we would come back the next night after our cookout since there were so many people with us. Anyway he was suppose to get it the night of the accident and never got to. So now four friends and I have it and it is on his headstone in which I hope to have places this month! Love u all!

1/4/2012

Well I haven't been great about keeping all this up but just trying to get past the holidays! The boys ended up letting the excitement get the best of them and really had a good Christmas! Wish us adults could do the same sometimes. Anyway we are still taking it a day or week at a time and keeping our heads up. I wish I could say it gets easier but it doesn't but we have to move forward, there is no Plan B!
Love you all!

Christmas 2011

Christmas for us will never be the same without Derek's energy and smile! Thank GOD my boys are able to smile through all the bad and still appreciate life, Derek taught them that.
I am amazed by the people that have really stepped up in my life and tried their best to make this a good Christmas! Thank you too my family and friends!
We spent Christmas Eve at the farm with my family and Brent was in town, our best present this year. We will go enjoy Derek's family on Christmas Day and Always remember how amazing he was and how lucky we were to have him in our life.

December 14, 2011

Sorry I have been bad about updating on this page just busy finding our way in life these days.
Boys are trying to be excited for Christmas and I am doing my best to make it a good one.
I have another surgery to remove the filter on December 20th and then nothing else for at least a year.
We are trying to stay strong but please keep the prays coming!
Love u all!

Tuesday, November 22,2011

Wow what a week this will be. Yesterday was Derek and I Anniversary, I had counseling, then met a friends for a nice talk, then went to cemetery by myself for the first time, then met another friend for a snack, then home to get boys and finally out for a girls night. It was nice to be with nine really amazing friends. It helped me smile during this hard week. Today more running to doctors and everything else. Tomorrow Garret's birthday! Derek is missed much on so many special days, not as special without him here.

Sleepless Night

Sorry I haven't been on here in a while to update, just been a rough month. We are all three doing okay but it is a struggle as we try to figure out our life these days. We have started our grief process finally now that we are all together at home and it is harder everyday.
I have many doctors appointments this week so I hope to get all good news.. Started rehab back finally since my bladder surgery and he has me off the walker for good. The pain is always there in my back where the plates are but nothing compares to the pain in my heart. Derek left a very large emptiness in our lives and I don't think it will ever be filled. I deal with the pain and fight everyday for my boys. It has been a long four months and the next two are going to be hard, so please pray for us.
The boys are good and continue to go to Therapy, we all have our days especially Ethan but we manage and deal with then the best we can.
Well it's almost 2 am so I am going to go try to sleep. Love u all!

Halloween

Good night with the boys tonight, got around the neighborhood and they both smiled and laughed!!! Love them so!!!!