Tuesday, November 22,2011

Wow what a week this will be. Yesterday was Derek and I Anniversary, I had counseling, then met a friends for a nice talk, then went to cemetery by myself for the first time, then met another friend for a snack, then home to get boys and finally out for a girls night. It was nice to be with nine really amazing friends. It helped me smile during this hard week. Today more running to doctors and everything else. Tomorrow Garret's birthday! Derek is missed much on so many special days, not as special without him here.

Sleepless Night

Sorry I haven't been on here in a while to update, just been a rough month. We are all three doing okay but it is a struggle as we try to figure out our life these days. We have started our grief process finally now that we are all together at home and it is harder everyday.
I have many doctors appointments this week so I hope to get all good news.. Started rehab back finally since my bladder surgery and he has me off the walker for good. The pain is always there in my back where the plates are but nothing compares to the pain in my heart. Derek left a very large emptiness in our lives and I don't think it will ever be filled. I deal with the pain and fight everyday for my boys. It has been a long four months and the next two are going to be hard, so please pray for us.
The boys are good and continue to go to Therapy, we all have our days especially Ethan but we manage and deal with then the best we can.
Well it's almost 2 am so I am going to go try to sleep. Love u all!