There is a lot of good in this life and I don't take it for granted. Don't focus on the struggles that you miss the gift of today. That is a statement I speak to myself every day when I read my devotional to help me not get to overwhelmed with the struggles of this life that I miss what is here and now. It's easy sometimes we get so caught up in what it should be, or what someone should do or did to us that we don't just stop. Life is too short and things change too fast and every day to not try to make the best of today. I look at how much my boys have grown in four years, how much their personalities have developed and changed. If I don't focus on being in this life I would miss that all. You have to want to be in this life and take it in and make it work. Not always easy, everyone doesn't always play nice or help but in the end it's a choice to live and live it the best we can. Something that Derek lost all too early, so I will not take for granted what I have. We love and miss him everyday and he is why we live and try to be better and love each other. It can be exhausting but we just keep going and loving each other. Every time I say prayers with my boys at night, or hear them say I love you it is a reminder that we must live this life the best we can for Derek. Life is what you make it
