Tuesday, August 12, 2014 Wishing for normal...

It will always still be a challenge to get use to my new normal, my boys and I are happy, we have found our norm as they call it. But I don't know if you ever get ok with what your new normal is. Normal is supposed to be coming home to my Husband and boys, working around the house together, doing things together as a family. We still do those but with what is now our family of three. Our norm is coming home, straighten house, tossing is laundry, making sure homework is done, school stuff is done and signed, stuff ready for the next day, paying bills, cooking dinner all before 5:30 without telling someone how crazy your day was then to head to two hours of soccer practice where I get that time to think of everything I still need to get done before I lay down to sleep but get to take a little breath as I watch our boys play. It is our norm and we do it very well but can't say I don't look around some days and think. Today was busy, I'm tired and exhausted but I lay my head down knowing that I did my best for my boys, myself and God. I know at the end of the day that's what matters most, I will say my prayers and start all over again tomorrow with those two smiling faces that teach me so much. Something to look forward to...