I remember when I use to get sick to my stomach and complete withdraw on the 2nd of every month just because Derek died on the 2nd but this month I was so busy I didn't have time to even think about it. Is that good or bad, I don't know. I am still grieving and healing everyday but it is in a different way. I smile more when I think of him and I feel happy that I had Derek in my life for the time I did. I still miss him daily and there is still always something everyday that pops in my head of how he would do it or react to me doing something a certain way. Especially around the house or on something that he would have been doing but it is always a thought with a smile. I never thought I would get to where the memories would make me smile but they do. In this chapter of my life I know that I was blessed to have him in my life for the time I did and that we had two amazing boys together. It kills me to know what he will miss during our boys life but I know he will always be looking over us and smiling down as these two boys grow into amazing men. And I have to focus on the good and not the missing pieces.
So please remember to slow down, breathe and count your blessings.
Pictures are from my Nephew's wedding that the boys were in, it felt great to be with family and celebrate the beginning of Brent and Shelby's life together, Derek would be so proud of Brent and the young man he has turned into.
Post from January 9, 2012:
What I try to believe in life, because not everyone understands just how precious it really is…
Life is crazy, and totally unpredictable...
It's going to bring you to your knees, kick you while you're down,
and hit you when you try to get back up.
Not everything can beat you but things are going to change you.
Listen to your heart, Follow your dreams or make news ones when yours get shattered and let no one tell you what you're capable of.
Push the limits, Bend the rules, and enjoy every minute of it.
Laugh at everything, Live for as long as you can.
Love all but be careful who you trust with your heart..
Believe in yourself, and never lose faith in others
Settle for nothing but only the best, And give 110% in everything you do.
Take risks, Live on the edge, Yet stay safe,
And cherish every single moment of it!!!
Life is a gift, appreciate all of it, and jump on every opportunity.
Not every one's going to love you, but who needs them anyways.
Challenge everything, and fight for what you believe.
Back down to nothing, but give in to the little things in life,
After all, that is what makes you.
Forget the unnecessary, But remember everything,
Bring it with you everywhere you go. Memories are Priceless!!!
Learn something new, hate nothing, But dislike what you want.
Never forget where you came from, and always remember where you are going.
It's going to bring you to your knees, kick you while you're down,
and hit you when you try to get back up.
Not everything can beat you but things are going to change you.
Listen to your heart, Follow your dreams or make news ones when yours get shattered and let no one tell you what you're capable of.
Push the limits, Bend the rules, and enjoy every minute of it.
Laugh at everything, Live for as long as you can.
Love all but be careful who you trust with your heart..
Believe in yourself, and never lose faith in others
Settle for nothing but only the best, And give 110% in everything you do.
Take risks, Live on the edge, Yet stay safe,
And cherish every single moment of it!!!
Life is a gift, appreciate all of it, and jump on every opportunity.
Not every one's going to love you, but who needs them anyways.
Challenge everything, and fight for what you believe.
Back down to nothing, but give in to the little things in life,
After all, that is what makes you.
Forget the unnecessary, But remember everything,
Bring it with you everywhere you go. Memories are Priceless!!!
Learn something new, hate nothing, But dislike what you want.
Never forget where you came from, and always remember where you are going.
Even when it’s hard to see!!!
Live Life to its fullest, and have a reason for everything,
Even if it's totally insane. Find your purpose in life, and Live it!
Live Life to its fullest, and have a reason for everything,
Even if it's totally insane. Find your purpose in life, and Live it!
This might not always be easy to see every day in this journey that we are all
On but we have to remember that it is our life to live and you only get one chance.
So even during the dark and hard times, remember there is more!!!
When life gets to be more than you can stand….
Kneel!!!
I believe in the Sun even when it is not shining…
In love even when I am alone…And in God even when he is silent!!!
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